Sorry it has taken me so long to gather up the strenght to write this... As i wrote last sunday, we have had a conversation with our oncologist and an expert on radiation treatment. That turned out to be the worst conversation in my entire life, i still do not know how to put it all into words here on our blog.
But the bottom line is that there are two optiones left; 1: Let the tumor go its course and let Mishelle leave us. 2: Take the radiation treatment which gives her a small chance of survival, but it will also leave her with severe consequences for the rest of her life ( her ability to learn, talk , walk, etc..). what a choice to be given!! The doctores recommend the first choice because they belive the second choice to be unethical.. whatever that means..? However in order for a mother and father to be able to live when all is said and done - WE have to try everything to keep Mishelle with us. WE can not give up, unethical or not.. afterall it is our daughter, and i for one can NOT accept giving up without a fight.
But either way - our lifes will forever be changed after this... I can not describe how it feels to given a choice like this - nor do i belive that anyone can fully understand the pain without having been in this situation.
Please keep Mishelle in your thoughts.. She is a hero amongst heroes!
